THEE BASICS...
:x: Name - Tanya
:x: Piercings – dos, in my ears.
:x: Tattoos – no
:x: Height – almost 5’5...yes
:x: Shoe Size – 8-9
:x: Hair Color – dark brown
:x: Length –medium
:x: Siblings – una hermana

LAST...
:x: Movie You Rented – I don’t rent movies very often. I believe it was sid&nancy.
:x: Movie You Bought –the princess bride.
:x: Song You Listened To – “I think I’m wonderful”-the damned
:x: Song Stuck In Your Head – “only a lad” by oingo boingo. it has been in my head for days. save me.
:x: CD You Bought – I do not recall….
:x:CD You Listened To – pixies “surfer rosa”
:x: Person You've Called – wood
:x: Person That's Called You: uh
:x: TV Show You've Watched – law and order criminal intent or something like that.
:x: Person You Were Thinking Of – wouldn’t you like to know…

DO...
:x: You Have A BF Or GF – no. I am hopeless.
:x: You Have A Crush On Someone – I think a few people are extremely attractive, but no actual crushes
:x: You Wish You Could Live Somewhere Else – all the time.
:x: You Think About Suicide –no.
:x: You Believe In Online Dating – no matter how I meet the person, they don’t like me. therefore, no.
:x: Others Find You Attractive - NO
:x: You Want More Piercings – definitely.
:x: You Drink –nope
:x: You Do Drugs –no…..
:x: You Smoke –no
:x: You Like Cleaning – have you seen my bedroom?!?
:x: You Like Roller Coasters – sí.
:x: You Write In Cursive or Print – print, because my cursive skills match that of a third grader.
:x: You Carry A Donor Card – hell no. I love my organs.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...
:x: Long Distance Relationships – never been in ANY relationship, so I wouldn’t know.
:x: Using Someone – it’s wrong, but I will admit I have done it before.
:x: Killing People – no. but abortion- yes.
:x: Teenage Smoking –yes. feel free to destroy your lungs.
:x: Doing Drugs – uh
:x: Premarital Sex – yes
:x: Driving Drunk – let me be YOUR designated driver.
:x: Gay/Lesbian Relationships – yes
:x: Soap Operas – soap operas give people who can’t act hope.

FAVORITE...
:x: Food – too many to name.
:x: Song – I don’t have just one… different favorite songs for different moods.
:x: Thing To Do – sleep and eat. this explains my fattness
:x: Thing To Talk About – blah blah blah
:x: Sports – DANCE. it is a sport.
:x: Drinks – beer, vodka, mike’s hard lemonade….actually hansens cherry vanilla soda and coke in glass bottles.
:x: Clothes – most of my skirts, my blazer, and my black sweatshirt
:x: Movies – sid&nancy, airplane, fight club, willy wonka and the chocolate factory, suburbia, star wars, romper stomper, most musicals, a clockwork orange, etc etc etc….
:x: Band – uh
:x: Singer – ani difranco and Brandon boyd because he is attractive. so very attractive.
:x: Holiday - Christmas
:x: Cars – classic mustangs, thunderbirds, just classic cars in general, and… el caminos. dallas, buy me one.

HAVE YOU...
:x: Ever Cried Over A girl – yes.
:x: Ever Been In A Fist Fight – I engage in many random acts of mild violence, but no fist fights.
:x: Ever Been Arrested – no.

WHAT...
:x: Shampoo Do You Use – pantene pro-v
:x: Cologne Do You Use – Lucky
:x: Shoes Do You Wear – converse chucks(hi tops and low tops) my doc martens, sandals(very rarely), and on some occasions red high heels. yes.
:x: Are You Scared Of – spiders.

NUMBER...
:x: Of Times I Have Been In Love – zero
:x: Times I Have Had My Heart Broken – zero
:x: Of Hearts I Have Broken – nobody has ever loved me, therefore the grand total of hearts I have broken is zero.
:x: Of Continents I Have Lived In - 1
:x: Of Drugs Taken Illegally - ummmmmmm
:x: Of People I Would Classify As True, Could Trust With My Life Type Friends – I am not sure I don’t know who I can trust these days.
:x: Of People I Consider My Enemies – 3: Cynthia, Erin, and Stephanie. the thought of them makes me laugh.
:x: Of Times My Picture Has Appeared In The Newspaper – none, but a girl who looks like me was on the front page once.
:x: Of Scars On My Body – many. my favorite one is on the palm of my right hand.
:x: Of Things In My Past That I Regret – there are so many.

FAVORITE...
:x: Disney Movie – alice in wonderland(don’t step on the mome wraths) and The Little Mermaid
:x: show – Simpsons
:x: color - black and red
:x: Scent – Lucky and mango mandarin from bath and body works
:x: Word – delectable
:x: Nickname – TT, tuts,nerd, and and a few others…
:x: Guy Name – adrian
:x: Girl Name – roxie
:x: Eye Colour – intense blue or green
:x: Flower – I like a lot of flowers…but roses are boring.
:x: Piercing – ears and nose if you have a cute nose.
:x: Actor – none
:x: Actress – none

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: Pretty – hell no.
:x: Funny – only to people with a good sense of humor.
:x: Hot – absolutely not.
:x: Friendly – that’s debatable.
:x:amusing – occasionally.
:x: ugly – extremely.
:x: Loveable – not sure.
:x: Pessimistic – most of the time.
:x: Optimistic – very rarely.
:x: Caring – no. I am callous and evil.
:x: Sweet – no.
:x: Dorky – yes. yes. yes.
:x: sensitive – no


 

  well i am back from the nerd olympics, aka academic decathalon awards. we beat marina's sorry ass. yep yep.  

  friday: i played spoons/pencils during fourth period... krista, just give up now. you WILL be defeated. then i went to the vhs dance show...the guys are pretty entertaining. i saw nicole crabtree there, which was good times. the bad thing was, the guy staring at my legs. i can't get a guy my age. all i get are sick, pathetic older guys. this needs to change.
saturday: watched the princess bride. cleaned mi cuarto. then went to the hub with cassie. strawberry crush is superior to orange crush in every way. skinny guys in tight pants. yes.
other stuff: you read my blog. and you know who you are. you made it obvious. but i guess you missed the point. you had countless opportunities, and you remained silent. i wanted to see if you would do anything about it. and you didn't. i guess some things never change. 

  wow i finally decided to update this thing. nothing much to say. i am not going to ballet tonight... and i am amazed shannon has not given up on me yet. girls,and fat guys, beware of emily because she likes to grab breasts. but she is "not a lesbian." blah blah blah. i am bored but NO i will not do something constructive with my time. i just realized i have not listened to RENT in a very long time.[dallas!] well the last thing i have to say is, if you have a problem with me or the way i act, say it to my face. please. believe it or not that is the way you solve problems. when you talk about it to other people, rather than the person you have issues with, it just makes it worse and creates unnecessary drama. and if you want to know something, anything, ask me and i will give you an honest answer. of course, some people can't handle the truth and if that is the case, i'm sorry if hurt your precious feelings. i am a jerk, i realize this, and life goes on. if i end up with no friends someday, it will be all my fault. cry me a river. 

  this blog is pointless. just a random place to say random things. not my real diary. there will be no melodrama. no excitement. no entertainment. no things worth saying. no deep thoughts. no epiphanies. take a minute, or
two if you are mentally challenged, to figure out why you are reading this. there are no valid reasons for reading the pathetic collection of writing known as my blog, except for perhaps extreme boredom or insanity. no matter what your reason is for reading this, let me tell you that you have hit rock bottom. get help now before it is too late. 

  i want somebody who sees the pointlessness
and still keeps their purpose in mind
i want somebody who has a tortured soul
some of the time
i want somebody who will either put out for me
or put me out of misery
or maybe just put it all to words
and make me go, you know
i never heard it put that way
make me go, what did you just say?

i want somebody who can hold my interest
hold it and never let it fall
someone who can flatten me with a kiss
that hits like a fist
or a sentence, that stops me like a brick wall
if you hear me talking
listen to what i'm not saying
if you hear me playing guitar
listen to what i'm not playing
and don't ask me to put words
to all the silences i wrote
don't ask me to put words
to all the spaces between notes
in fact if you have to ask, forget it
do and you'll regret it
i'm tired of being the interesting one
i'm tired of having fun for two
just lay yourself on the line
and i might lay myself down by you
but don't sit behind your eyes
and wait for me to surprise you
i want somebody who can make me
scream until it's funny
give me a run for my money
i want someone who can
twist me up in knots
tell me, for the woman who has everything
what have you got?
i want someone who's not afraid of me
or anyone else
in other words i want someone
who's not afraid of themself

do you think i'm asking too much?